I haven’t posted anything these past days because Im without medication and I don’t want to expose anyone to that. Which kinda contradicts the whole point of maintaining this blog, apparently. I’m sorry.

Using tumblr so far has proved to be quite the experience. It’s certainly different from forums and imageboards, where I have been timidly struggling and bickering for over ten years.

This blog contains more information about me, about how I think, than anything else I’ve ever told anyone. Being exposed to the diversity of opinions here really changed the way I see and understand the world, dispelling many preconceptions I had. More importantly, in my interactions with others here I could see how much I’m emotionally unstable and dependent, obsessive and outright creepy.

To be honest, I’m in the middle of the night and on the verge of a panic attack, unsure over how to feel about all this and what direction should I take from now on. I’m scared of myself.

How do you consistently come out with such good comics I'm ANGRY

iguanamouth:

the process:

image

image

mayoryashy:

your arms feel weird and you go pale

mayoryashy:

your arms feel weird and you go pale

Talent is a snare and a delusion. In the end, the practical questions about talent come down to these: Who cares? Who would know? and What difference would it make?
And the practical answers are: Nobody, Nobody, and None.
Art & Fear: Observations on the perils (and rewards) of Artmaking

David Bayles & Ted Orland (via catflop)

kaargue:

#long post

putting this one here for safekeeping.

It turns out procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It’s a neurotic self-defense behavior that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.

You see, procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.

Procrastination Is Not Laziness | Thought Catalog

I’ve posted this before but I’m posting it again because it’s just so important and really gets at the heart of why so much advice about procrastination, much of it targeted at people who have ADHD but are just considered “lazy,” fails. Before you can tell someone to “just do it already,” you need to think about the reasons they’re NOT doing it, like all the meanings they’ve attached to vague terms like “success” and “failure.”

(via brutereason)

Oh wow.

(via awkwardcarnivore)

That resonates too much.  As I sit on tumblr at 1 in the morning, avoid studying for a test I have at noon today. 

(via not-a-douchey-url)

pinebark:

i got a really long anonymous ask today from someone who wanted to talk about their gender feelings and i don’t directly answer anonymous questions on this tumblr but i sort of wanted to address it because i feel for the person a lot and their description of their experiences matched my own a few years ago.

the big thing is that this post was not meant to be a joke. if you’re agonizing over wanting to be in a dyke relationship, looking at women with a mixture of subjective and objective desire (wanting/wanting to be), and feeling all fucked up about your gender: you. are. trans.

it doesn’t matter if you don’t have strong feelings of aversion towards your junk, if you’ve only really noticed those feelings in the last few years, whatever. these are not things that cis dudes spend a lot of time thinking about.

the problem is that for those of us who don’t have straightforward trans narratives, who didn’t know since we were little kids, it’s super easy to come up with a million reasons why we’re not “really” trans. and if you’re not ready to acknowledge that maybe you totally are, then there is nothing that i or any other trans person can do to convince you.

so, anonymous asker: you’re trans, and it’s probably going to take a lot of work to get to a point of being able to seriously face that. i can’t give you a shortcut or explain it to you in a way that’s going to make it click. all i can suggest for now is that you find some trans women who share some of yr perspectives and desires and politics and spend time with them. not seeing myself in any of the images of trans womanhood i had available was probably a pretty big reason why i didn’t transition earlier, and changing that has been a crucial part of undoing some of the shitty ideas i’ve picked up living in a sexist, transphobic culture.

i wish you the best and trust in yr power to chart a course that’s right for you.

andyleighr:

motivational flowers for my sticker-zine submission because stickers are rad

andyleighr:

motivational flowers for my sticker-zine submission because stickers are rad

btolsen:

From The Spirit #14 (July 2011).

btolsen:

From The Spirit #14 (July 2011).

forgottencool:

Girl’s Love Stories # 121 (1966)

forgottencool:

Girl’s Love Stories # 121 (1966)